Tuesday, August 11, 2009

This is the crappy post

Where I let the blogosphere know that I am losing the baby. That's actually a dumb phrase -- losing the baby -- because I know exactly where the baby is ... not with me. Even that's only half true because I did see the wee one and its even wee'er little heartbeat and let me tell you that is the hardest part. Hardest. Knowing you have a life inside you that is slowly extinguishing. Poof.

I am not mad at God, myself, the world or anyone. Its just sucks. A big giant ball of suckiness. A big ginormous crappy ball of even crappier suckiness.

Now I am going to close my eyes and wait for the Tylenol PM to kick. My friends, tomorrow has GOT to be a better day.

2 comments:

~*Michelle*~ said...

Oh Jen......my heart is breaking.

I can only offer up prayers....I love you mama.

travisandkatie said...

I love you, too. Call me if you need to talk or if you just feel like heading South for no reason.

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